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(Points to anyone who gets the reference)

I don't want to like him this much this soon. It's too soon. It's just infatuation, but it feels so damn good.
Yesterday at work I was trying very hard not to call him. As I was thinking about how I should not call him, and picking up the phone to call my mother to keep me from calling him, he called me. And asked if I had plans after work. Since I didn't (it was Monday, after all) he asked if I wanted to come over. And of course I said yes.
And so I went over. And we watched Justice League and hung out on his balcony and such. And he made me dinner and served me champagne cocktails. And he danced with me (hence the swooning right now). Seriously, he can't keep doing this kind of thing, I'm gonna be useless.
And then he called a cab to send me home (and paid for it) because he didn't want me to have to deal with waiting for the train and walking home and such.
Damnit.

No, I will not be going to his place today. He has things to do and I have things to do and you know, I do actually pay rent, I should see my apartment every now and then.

Also, this is going to sound really shallow, but dating guys who actually have careers and good salaries is a nice change for me. It's nice when you know that they can buy you dinner and not have it be a problem for them, and when they can give you cash for a cab ride home and can pay for the movie tickets or whatever. I like being taken care of, and I like that security. Plus then I never have to worry that they're feeling emasculated because I pay, or that they really can't afford it but they don't want to admit that.

Anyway, I'm going back to work now.
But *swoon*.

Dear Jake Gyllenhaal:
We all knew you weren't going to win the Oscar. However, if you are sad about it and need to be consoled, I am an excellent hugger and would be happy to console you in person. The beautiful blue-eyed babies we would make together would also surely brighten up the dark moments in your life.
Much Love,
Me

So, I'm a little freaked out. I have two interviews tomorrow. One's at 10, and I'm not so freaked out. The other's w/ Kaplan and at 6 PM. And I have to do my 5 minute audition, and I don't know what to do and I'm not prepared, and I'm kinda freaking out. Then on Tuesday, I have another interview, again not so freaked out about that, but still.

( Adventures in Computing )

( Adventures in Commuting )

In other news, I went to All Souls Unitarian, which was of the good. And I made French Toast afterwards, after talking to the parents. I wish I'd been having waffles in Powell, but...
I also want some hugs, but I don't have anyone here to hug. :(

If you want to come and give me hugs, you can use www.flyi.com and fly independence air, b/c their hub is in DC and they are cheap and fly to all the cities near to where all the people I want to come visit me live. Except for people who will be in Europe. But that's a whole other issue.

That's my life folks. Mom ran a flea market today, and I helped pack up. Otherwise spent the day reading and playing on the laptop. Went to dinner with the folks at Pizza Hut at like 4:30, then grocery shopping. Was home before 6. Felt not so hot, so I took a shower and put on jammies. Feeling better now. Watched A Mighty Wind with my parents, now we're watching Law and Order, no surprise there, as we watch a whole lot of L&O at this house.  Which is fine by me. 

Got to talk to the boy last night, which made me happy.  He's in NJ for a bar mitzvah.   Wish he was here instead, but that's life.  Talked to Alex via IM too, which is fun, b/c he's got a nice and unique perspective on things, and is pretty much the only guy I know with whom I can talk regarding relationship things and whatnot- Nathanael's Nathanael, and as such does not know all the things that Alex knows, and my other male friends are likewise inexperienced.  Not to mention I'm not particularly close to them.  That's what happens in that kind of situation- travel Europe with someone, you get a unique relationship. 

Not much going on otherwise.  Feeling restless- I have the urge to type alot, or do something with my hands.  I should channel this creatively, but I feel rather undirected. Also feeling the need for some serious cuddling action, but I don't have anyone to cuddle with, except my parents, which is an entirely different cuddling experience. 

Back to Law and Order for now....