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lotusbiosm ([personal profile] lotusbiosm) wrote2006-08-29 11:49 am
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I'm pretty sure that's Asbury Park, not Grenada

(Points to anyone who gets the reference)

I don't want to like him this much this soon. It's too soon. It's just infatuation, but it feels so damn good.
Yesterday at work I was trying very hard not to call him. As I was thinking about how I should not call him, and picking up the phone to call my mother to keep me from calling him, he called me. And asked if I had plans after work. Since I didn't (it was Monday, after all) he asked if I wanted to come over. And of course I said yes.
And so I went over. And we watched Justice League and hung out on his balcony and such. And he made me dinner and served me champagne cocktails. And he danced with me (hence the swooning right now). Seriously, he can't keep doing this kind of thing, I'm gonna be useless.
And then he called a cab to send me home (and paid for it) because he didn't want me to have to deal with waiting for the train and walking home and such.
Damnit.

No, I will not be going to his place today. He has things to do and I have things to do and you know, I do actually pay rent, I should see my apartment every now and then.

Also, this is going to sound really shallow, but dating guys who actually have careers and good salaries is a nice change for me. It's nice when you know that they can buy you dinner and not have it be a problem for them, and when they can give you cash for a cab ride home and can pay for the movie tickets or whatever. I like being taken care of, and I like that security. Plus then I never have to worry that they're feeling emasculated because I pay, or that they really can't afford it but they don't want to admit that.

Anyway, I'm going back to work now.
But *swoon*.

[identity profile] drdeadringer.livejournal.com 2006-08-29 04:59 pm (UTC)(link)
I wonder how long it'll take most other people to catch up to this whole equality, no playing games thing. Probably a few hundred more years. Bets anyone?

[identity profile] lotusbiosm.livejournal.com 2006-08-29 05:37 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm not entirely sure I understand your comment. Are you implying that I'm playing games? Because I don't generally play games. I didn't want to call him because a) I was at work and b) I don't want to look needy/desperate and irritate him. Plus while I was pretty sure he was off work, I wasn't 100% certain, and while I think he said that it wouldn't ring if I called while he was at work, I still worry that I shouldn't call during the day because I might interrupt the hunt for Osama bin Laden or something, you know?
It's weird as a girl, because I'm a feminist, and so I want to be treated like an equal (and he does) and I also think that it's BS that the guy should have to pay for anything. But I'm also a little on the broke side and I like to be taken care of. And caretaking doesn't necessarily need to cost anything, because you know, I'm happy if you just cuddle with me at the end of a hard day. But he's a gentleman, and he treats me the way a gentleman treats a lady, and it's very hard for me to get used to that sort of thing, because I'm not used to it and I don't expect it or feel entitled to it.

[identity profile] drdeadringer.livejournal.com 2006-08-29 05:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[waves hands] No no no -- lots of other people who are silly, and I'm sure you've seen this. You're not silly in that regard. You're roughly normal, and if others were too then that would be great.

[identity profile] lotusbiosm.livejournal.com 2006-08-29 05:44 pm (UTC)(link)
OK, good, because I thought that you meant I was being sensible, but it's hard to tell sometimes over the Internet.
And yes, lots of other people are silly. And I kind of hate some of them. Girls who play games on purpose piss me off because they confuse men and then men don't know how to act like rational human beings around women.

[identity profile] drdeadringer.livejournal.com 2006-08-29 05:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes to both. If this works out reasonably enough for you, I may insist which direction Amanda's bouquet gets thrown.

Btw, have you come across Irrational Public Radio? http://www.irrationalpublicradio.com/

[identity profile] lotusbiosm.livejournal.com 2006-08-30 08:22 pm (UTC)(link)
It's a little too soon to be thinking about catching anybody's bouquets.

[identity profile] drdeadringer.livejournal.com 2006-08-31 09:52 am (UTC)(link)
But I wanted to see how you'd dig yourself out of blushing that hard :D

[identity profile] loungeact.livejournal.com 2006-08-30 11:14 am (UTC)(link)
oh, that is so nice :)
enjoy it, lady. you deserve it. and really, what sensible girl wouldn't be totally smitten and swoony after such treatment?


really, that's lovely. congrats.


e.

[identity profile] lotusbiosm.livejournal.com 2006-08-30 08:22 pm (UTC)(link)
See, this is what I'm saying. How can I not swoon?
Last night he read me the balcony scene from Cyrano.

(Anonymous) 2006-08-31 06:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Dude. Cyrano. Props to him on that.

It's a pretty powerful scene, though, for new love.

-Kellie

(Anonymous) 2006-08-31 06:10 pm (UTC)(link)
(Not that I'm thumbs-downing that per se, just a little surprised.)

[identity profile] lotusbiosm.livejournal.com 2006-09-01 10:45 am (UTC)(link)
Well, and see, this is my point. I think he did it just because it's his favorite play and that's a great scene, but I was sitting there and thinking "dude, you have to stop this."
Especially because it makes me feel things that I'm not sure he expects me to feel.

[identity profile] aneslin.livejournal.com 2006-08-31 04:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Congrats on a good man. Makes me wonder where all the good women are. Does he have a sister?